Saudade faz doer

It's 6.34 pm, just around the time I'd have Bianca all for myself at home after picking her up at the daycare. Instead, I am stuck in rainy NYC at La Guardia airport waiting for my flight that for now is going to leave 30 minutes late.

I left Charlotte this morning to come for this one-day business trip and left her very happy at Heather's house with Juju, which gave me a sense of relief. I gave her a big hug and kiss and left relieved she handled well and so did I!

I know it is just like an ordinary day that I will see her at the end of the day after daycare, just a little later... However, the fact that miles separate us, makes me miss her so much, even though I saw her in the morning! During the day, the managers were asking me if I was staying a couple of days. I know I will have to do this at one point, but I know it's going to hurt. I can't bear at this point the fact that she will be put to sleep by someone else and that I will not see her the next day in the morning! I know she will be fine and the problem is me! It is part of growing as a mother to let them go.

Anyways, I have yet too much to say about this one event, but my free internet time is up. Just needed to vent and put it out there: I MISS YOU MISS B!!!!!